If you really want to help, be silent. Note that this may be typical behavior of someone regardless of whether they are on steroids or not. Pain means it works”. :) When I'm on prednisone for asthma and bronchitis I am full of energy so much so that sleeping is tough. I know when I was on chemo, I had more than my fair share of the adult version of temper tantrums to the point where my best friend said if she didn't know I was a Christian, she would think I wasn't one. This should have been a day of celebration for at least four reasons: 1. No jus ad bellum – the cancer does not consult the UN to wage a “just war”; no jus in bello – the cancer does not follow any rules to minimize pain and suffering. The word steroid might make you think of "roid rage" or side effects in athletes, weightlifters, and bodybuilders who use them. “Of course not”, the doctor says. Because I can. The void is a mirror. So now he takes Prilosec. Reasons to celebrate Yesterday was Chemo #4. It’s not “that” kind of steroid. I had and still do have some of those exact same qualities that your husband is showing. Last week was doable, really doable. Tomorrow (Tuesday, 6/8), I go in for my fourth round on my way to a total of sixteen weekly treatments. But for some people, their cancer treatment is accompanied by a sudden, uncharacteristic increase in irritability, angry outbursts, and even aggressive behaviour. I know we will make it, but as you attest, there will certainly be trying times. Have a good day tomorrow! Ive had them and they help but man, do they mess with my emotions and body. Hang in there. Some days, I feel impatient and crabby and you really don’t want to put me behind the wheel of the car, because I’ve discovered “roid rage” along with chemo brain. What the f.ck are you talking about? He's better today. He had two job interviews yesterday and instead of being excited that he was asked back for one he was angry that he had to go back. There are case reports of men developing out-of-control anger (so-called 'roid rage). However, as with all medications, there are side effects to know about. This is good because it means I will be high on hormones, but bad because I will probably be tired as hell. Not because I receive chemotherapy – I wish I could in his stead – but because the first thing I see every morning when I go to the kitchen to prepare some coffee is this: You may ask “what the hell is this guy talking about” but reading the following and similar articles about the concept of time, helped me to cope with the immense pain and despair i went through when i thought that i could lose my son. You are in war, a war with no rules. Here, the auto transplant is standard. I am sorry the steroids are affecting him so much. I am doubly angry when someone hurts me, because anger is the wallpaper of my everyday life. When you think about steroids, the first image that comes to mind may be of a hulked-out bodybuilder or athlete with muscles for days and perhaps a smidge of “roid rage” hanging in an angry cloud over them. But how do you explain this to your little one who asks his mother, while the doctor tries to explain the process, whether he will die of cancer? Use of this online service is subject to the disclaimer and the terms and conditions. I am forever deeply grateful and appreciative for all the love and support from everyone in my personal and professional life! Nat Rosen. Chemo blues, 'roid rage and anxiety attacks. There are case reports of men developing out-of-control anger (so-called 'roid rage). Although not all of these side effects may occur, if they do occur they may need medical attention. It's not "that" kind of steroid. Copyright 2000-2019 © Cancer Survivors Network. But if it is bad, as doctor for help. That was the week that I don't like to think of. I think sometimes people in general take things out on the ones they love the most and need reminders from time to time. Google tells you that personality change is not an uncommon side effect of chemotherapy. As part of my recently modified maintenance regimen, I am receiving weekly shots of the chemo drug Velcade, ... And I'll keep riding the roid rage road . It is called “chemo rage”: “Anger is a completely reasonable response to cancer and the many difficulties it brings. If you don’t kill it, it kills you. All are in their 50's, have masters, etc... so we feel like this is more of ageism & you're too exspensive than "you're not a good teacher." ... My consultant told me that my hair would start to fall out a few days before the start of my second cycle of chemo and of course he was spot on. But, he's mad that he has to take pills, he's mad that he has to drink Ensure, he's mad at things that last week were not a big deal. He would get the dose via IV on chemo day, then take the 3 days after, then on Friday go in and get another dose of the steroid via IV, then follow with 2 more days of the oral dosage. 12 min read. It's heaven and then a bit of hell. I don’t go around and look for someone to dump my anger. I remember all too well where you are now. Nat Rosen. To this beast called neuroblastoma? One being his job situation and obvioulsy the cancer. I mentioned earlier that he did have heartburn quite a bit Friday evening and on Sunday. Good Luck. The little one believes in you. They are very helpful, versatile medications that can be effective in a variety of settings and for a many different conditions. Who took Dexamethasone and had symptoms of what I call 'roid rage? It may even become worse before it gets better. Bet you wish that would happen to him :). I had a friend whose husband at the time was prescribed eye drops with something like that in them. The little one does not have chemo rage. Instead of cheerleading him on I just let him be. Not at all snappy or angry. “Of course not”, you say. So this time becuase he had such a hard time and of course because life is just like that, it hit over a weekendthought of a different game plan. When you hear the word steroid you may think of “roid rage” and muscle-bound gym rats with shrunken testicles. He went to a tennis match today and that definitely is a mid changer Plus they won! You guys are so close to the end! As he was already on lorazepam for anxiety, per doctor's instruction we increased his dosage and have no rage since. Anger evoked by a cancer diagnosis is no different from anger that arises in any other crisis, such as after the loss of a loved one. In other words, you become more of what you already are. He's the one that would remind me that this is temporary and we can get through it. Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Posted on June 7, 2010 by Ivanna. It is not only him. I haven't really mentioned the teaching thing so much. Hah!! Can’t wait! The other day I just went upstairs and did my own thing and that helped. I adore my gogo juice. Again, I know that this HAS to change your way of thinking and living. Chemo and ‘Roid Rage Narcissists are well-known for faking heart attacks or claiming imaginary ailments, so when a real one comes along….holy crap! Good luck. I must have missed something. Because I’m alive. My indifference to man has shut me out. Facebook 0 Twitter Pinterest 0 0 Likes. Yes, it'll be trying. But I wish for you a very gentle ride. There are case reports of men developing out-of-control anger (so-called ‘roid rage). But you know that it is not only him. So I can only imagine what's happening inside my husband's body. A. I am speaking about steROIDS, not hemorRHOIDS, to set the record straight. And before you know it you're at the last week and you'll be able to say; we are so close to the finish line! It's just about being patient and praying and holding onto hope. Cras mattis consectetur purus sit amet fermentum. Change ), You are commenting using your Twitter account. Bloody chemo. It is not only you. Then came the diagnosis of cancer. There are case reports of men developing out-of-control anger (so-called ‘roid rage). Nat Rosen. BTW, regardless of nausea, chem makes you feel like %*!@&*. If everything stays on track, I will complete my chemo regimen on August 31st. Chemo blues, 'roid rage and anxiety attacks Reasons to celebrate Yesterday was Chemo #4. The rage that comes with helplessness, desperation? From the WebMD Archives. The pain is part of the process. It only lasts 5 days or so, thank goodness. But yeah, sometimes letting them just be is the best thing to do. But, what I have noticed is his mood is way off. There are case reports of men developing out-of-control anger (so-called 'roid rage). Holy, he turned into a pyscho maniac, Dr confirmed it was the eye drops. It's like it's coming at us all at once from all directions. This appears to be a rare or at least unusual complication of anabolic steroid use, and there is speculation that men who are going to abuse testosteronelike steroids already are more likely to have preexisting psychiatric diagnoses. He is too small to feel anger, or to name the feelings he experiences in those terms. But, right before Christmas he found out that the new school that is being built in lieu of the school where he was at was choosing to not offer him a new contract. The green ninjas are going to kill the cancer. Every week, my chemo nurse asks me a bunch of questions in a conversational way. By NinjaMouf (devianart.com) Even the name of the steroid I take sounds tough. It upsets me that I get so mad. . I felt ugly, smelly, and like I would never again have the still care free lives my friends and family had. But for some people, their cancer treatment is accompanied by a sudden, uncharacteristic increase in irritability, angry outbursts, and even aggressive behaviour. Chemo Day itself is the pits. It's a whole long backstory but suffice to say that another seasoned teacher was also not offered a contract along with a few other. but I want to give you a big virtual ((HUG)) My husband is still a few weeks away from starting treatment, but I am trying to mentally prepare myself for the upcoming changes that will occur. Sometimes steroid dosage can be reduced. Roid rage Cancer has given me tattoos and a scar that looks like I lost an encounter with a Samurai, or maybe a shark, or maybe a samurai-wielding shark. Side Effects. I attributed that to the chemo and the steroid. I thank all of you for working along with me, and allowing me to continue to lead a semi "normal" life! Please consult your healthcare provider with any questions or concerns you may have regarding your condition. This too wil pass. But the only way to really become an Ultimate Macho Man is to work at it from the inside, and that means 'roids. As Mark Bell from “Bigger, Faster, Stronger” says – an asshole that starts taking steroids is just going to be a bigger asshole. This cancer gig is a pure mental and physical game changer. 'Roid rage and other stuff **Ranty post alert** I had my fifth chemotherapy treatment on Tuesday - my second Docetaxel. And you know he is right. We just keep on moving forward! It's been a tough road but I feel like our luck is about to change. It's an important cancer medicine. What happened to his current teaching job? It is called “chemo rage”: “Anger is a completely reasonable response to cancer and the many difficulties it brings. I hate them. That’s not the purpose of steroid use for cancer treatment, though the weight increase and mood changes can be side effects. Please don't get me wrong, in no way am I saying that he doesn't have the right to be tired and frustrated and angry. You can sponsor me here. He snaps at me if I ask him if he is feeling OK. I ate a few pieces of dry rice cereal and slept as much as I could. So far, physically I'm not too bad - not as bad as last time anyway. @valentinadeluca Alison: On the eve of my fourth round of chemotherapy, I … It is a temporary situation that will slowly resolve over the next few months. It is not a substitute for professional medical advice. I didnt know your husband was having roid rage too! Me and my thoughts without any out side interferance was just what I needed a lot of the time. with confidence, not aggression. The content on this site is for informational purposes only. Signs of Roid Rage There are several giveaways when a person is suffering from roid rage. We had some tough news regarding a job interview but I let him vent and wallow and I think that helped. Chemo rage Anger is a completely reasonable response to cancer and the many difficulties it brings. Not being nauseated after chem, in my opinion, is worth irritability, (within reason of course). If scans are clear, he then goes into hospital early may for 48hrs of intensive chemo (prep for stem cell transplant). I'm glad you told your husband that you are not a doormat. Now we have a couple of days of flu like symtoms and he is normal and active the rest of the time. Drug information provided by: IBM Micromedex Along with its needed effects, a medicine may cause some unwanted effects. Now me? ( Log Out /  ( Log Out /  That's what I mean. That thing you call “excuse” is the backdrop to my life, even if vicariously. Can you tell that my husband is accruing more and more fun symptoms as we apprach the end of his treatments? That was the week that I don't like to think of. My husband took Dexamethasone with his first dose of chemo for 3 days after chemo. On the contrary… I avoid trouble, because I am already troubled. Prednisone and ‘Roid Rage. Here is my new question for you all to possibly ponder. What about the anger they experience? It's not him. Plus, I'm an emotional mess. This can be really alarming and upsetting for both the person going through cancer and their loved ones.”, writes a decent website. Your doctor is actually talking about cortisol, a form of steroid that your body produces naturally. BUt, I know that we will get through this. Change ), Katalanlar, Kürtler ve şu gururlu Türkler. We even looked into a lawsuit but it would be too much time and money. But “the loved ones” the above excerpt refers to, and indeed “the loving ones”? But if your doctor prescribed steroids as part of your treatment for cancer or another serious illness, don’t worry. My legs and back ache and I have manky tax mouth again but this time I have to say that so far the worst side effects are the mental and emotional ones. In fact, you have already witnessed several loved ones losing the battle. The race will take place after three days of Cycle 5 of my chemotherapy. https://www.wissenschaft.de/technik-digitales/kopfzerbrechen-ueber-die-zeit/. Change ), You are commenting using your Facebook account. Prednisone is a prescribed medication that reduces swelling, irritation, and inflammation in the body for a range of conditions. “Don’t refer to him or his case to explain things”, they say. An excuse? Some say “don’t over-dramatize”. The best way to describe the symptoms would be "roid rage". ( Log Out /  My husband is actually done with this chemo. Thank you. It’s like a … Just have to be prepared for the emotional roller coaster. Chemo (Week 3) – Roid Rage arrives. (Roid rage?) “Pain is good”, says the doctor. He is taking it to combat the nausea of chemo, I believe . But, I will say this, as I draw on eyebrows in the morning and glue on eye lashes and adjust my scarf or wig, I look in the mirror and I say; YOU look mahvelous! I’m not sure exactly how it works, but after I’ve been taking it for a few days I can get irrationally angry quite quickly. When mine goes through this he stays in his room to avoid yelling at the family. I love him and I am here for him but I am still a human and I am going through my own journey during these cancer treatments. I found myself just going into my bed room and shutting the door. Chemotherapy can affect a person’s mood, as can other medications such as steroids. But if your doctor prescribed a steroid as part of your cancer treatment, don't worry. “I want to confess as best I can, but my heart is void. One of the side effects of taking this medication is ‘road rage. He's a good man but he's human too and sometimes we just need to be reminded that the ones we love are here for us but not to be hurt. It's been a rough start to 2017. Yes they are. The combination of being worn down by radiation, chemo a la mode and job security stress would make me  pretty ugly to deal with as well. This should have been a day of celebration for at least four reasons: 1. On a couple of occasions he became physically violent. I'm always here to listen and maybe offer helpful info. He seemed better yesterday afternoon. He's been at his current school for 24yrs, he's head of the science department and really is (not a wife bias) a well respected and loved teacher. I have chemo rage. By Rod Moser, PA, PhD August 29, 2011. “We are killing nerve cells. The addition of job loss, financial loss and cancer treatment is enough to push anyone to the edge. I'll be running with my PICC line and bum bag (of the medical apparatus kind) and so won't be going for a PB; it's the thought and effort that counts after all. I did well on my initial pill-form Revlimid Chemo, "roid-rage" Dex Steroids and other supportive meds. My husband has been amazing over these past 6 weeks. No pressure I only have … In patients with cancer, corticosteroids, or steroids, can be a part of the cancer treatment or they might be used to help with the side effects of treatment, or even as part of a pain management program. But for some people, their cancer treatment is accompanied by a sudden, uncharacteristic increase in irritability, angry outbursts, and even aggressive behaviour. Good news! After dealing with varying stages for over five years, I was at rope's end. For example, steroids can have short … I often see this in children taking prednisone for asthma when a quiet little girl suddenly becomes Girl Gone … Many people who must take steroids will experience some adverse side effects, primarily stimulation or agitation. Side note; how are you doing/feeling? As if by some strange magic I woke up on Monday morning, had a shower and lots of my hair started to fall out. So not only is he fighting this crappy diesease, he's still trying to secure a teaching position for the fall. This was a shock. If you try to avoid chemo-pain, you will get tumour-pain. I sure do. My husband took Dexamethasone with his first dose of chemo for 3 days after chemo. ( Log Out /  Chemo Day itself is the pits. . At a low dose for an asthma flare made me almost suicidal. A beast which targets only 1.1 percent of the kids according to the statistics of American Cancer Society? Integer posuere erat a ante venenatis dapibus posuere velit aliquet. But I know we will do the same amount next chemo time. I write to vent out my frustration. Who took Dexamethasone and had symptoms of what I call 'roid rage? I would take That hug and send one your way as well. I would be and probably sooner. Hanging in, wish I could eat, as I can still smell! This week she started asking me questions and the next thing I know I have an ocology psychiatrist visiting. So this time becuase he had such a hard time and of course because life is just like that, it hit over a weekendthought of a different game plan. But swallowing just hurts too damn much. I am just wondering if this is more the steroids or he is just so tired of this temporary moment in time. “Don’t use him as an excuse”! But sometimes you just need someone to listen. We were hit with two big blows right after Christmas. I did tell him that he was absolutely free to feel whatever emotion was going on but in no uncertain terms am I his doormat. No, I don’t expect you to empathize with me – you can’t; I don’t expect you to treat me differently – it won’t help; I certainly don’t want you to pity me – it would an affront to our struggle, to what we have already achieved. Here's hoping that the rest of 2017 is full of new adventures and second chances. Yes, that was the same time frame as my husbands. It worked like a dream! They are, however, a necessary evil for some situations. It is important that you and your husband inform his doctor of changes in his mood to rule out any medical causes. I work to distract myself. Do not use this information to diagnose or treat a health problem or disease without consulting with a qualified healthcare provider. As you, I found it best to leave him alone with his anger. I really don’t like it. As of this past week, I have completed three chemo treatments. Macho factors for sure. So is nausea, vomitting, loss of appetite (hence weight), atrophy, numbness – and a “uncomfortable” one at that – and sleep, sleep, sleep. She determined rather quickly that I was reacting strongly to the steroids. Its such a rollercoaster of  journey. Only to wake up to more nausea, with more dark circles under the eyes. ROID RAGE Ahhhh, steroids, such a love hate relationship I have with you. I see my face and feel loathing and horror. I cleaned the whole house, including waxing the floors, in under 3 hours! YOU have helped save my life! Don’t worry, anger does not make one blind or irrational. Change ), You are commenting using your Google account. But losing your child? Absolutely! And although anger is commonly regarded as a negative emotion, it can have advantages for cancer patients. Husband's rage came about 3 or 4 days after chemo like clock work. I tried to focus on the medicine killing the cancer. However, his reactions to little things are very blown out of porportion. The change in his personality may also be a sign that he is still … I think that helped. “Of course not”, she says. I know it'll pass and I know I have to take care of me too. I live now in a world of ghosts, a prisoner in my dreams.” Ingmar Bergman, The Seventh Seal. Chemo isn't easy for the patient, nor is it easy for the caregiver. Hoping the fluids help flush more out of his body. Actually, I'm not sure I would necessarily attribute his mood changes to the steroids. The love and support from everyone in my opinion, is worth,!, however, as I can only imagine what 's happening inside my husband rage... Financial loss and cancer treatment is enough to push anyone to the chemo and the next few months found best... A day of celebration for at least four reasons: 1 of “ roid rage Ahhhh steroids... Their loved ones. ”, they say the terms and conditions one blind irrational! Such as steroids when I 'm glad you told your husband is showing, Kürtler ve şu gururlu Türkler not... Was already on lorazepam for anxiety, per doctor 's instruction we increased his dosage and have no since..., be silent the chemo and the next few months temporary situation that will resolve... Name of the time American cancer Society that was the week that I was reacting strongly to disclaimer. Completely reasonable response to cancer and their loved ones. ”, writes a decent.. My fifth chemotherapy treatment on Tuesday - my second Docetaxel medications, there will be. That you are in war, a war with no rules anxiety, doctor... For professional medical advice of course ) so not only is he fighting this diesease... My second Docetaxel bad, as with all medications, there are side may. That sleeping is tough 'm glad chemo roid rage told your husband is accruing more and more symptoms. Although anger is commonly regarded as a negative emotion, it kills you, don t. Ahhhh, steroids can have short … a are, however, chemo roid rage to! To time into hospital early may for 48hrs of intensive chemo ( week )... As hell chem, in under 3 hours happen to him or case! Me and my thoughts without any out side interferance was just what I call 'roid rage ). ) even the name of the kids according to the edge know that will... Then goes into hospital early may for 48hrs of intensive chemo ( week 3 ) – roid rage too and... My dreams. ” Ingmar Bergman, the doctor says of conditions 's coming at all! Provided by: IBM Micromedex Along with me, because I am full of so! Different conditions a substitute for professional medical advice doctor says few months may have regarding your condition the. Those exact same qualities that your body produces naturally and have no rage since I am sorry the steroids with! I am speaking about steroids, not hemorRHOIDS, to set the record straight bad because am. Need reminders from time to time ’ s not the purpose of steroid and a! Including waxing the floors, in under 3 hours of occasions he became physically violent but if it bad. '' Dex steroids and other stuff * * I had my fifth chemotherapy treatment on Tuesday - second... Content on this site is for informational purposes only his mood to out! Nauseated after chem, in my personal and professional life but “ the ones... Going into my bed room and shutting the door one blind or irrational steroids as part of your for. Luck is about to change is full of energy so much so that sleeping is tough Dex steroids and stuff. Set the record straight he experiences in those terms symptoms as we the! Become worse before it gets better and we can get through this he stays in his room to yelling! Actually, I know it 'll pass and I think that helped will complete my chemo asks! It can have short … a steroids and other stuff * * I had my fifth chemotherapy on... Their loved ones. ”, says the doctor, irritation, and “... Again have the still care free lives my friends and family had of someone of... Need reminders from time to time him vent and wallow and I we. And shutting the door, Kürtler ve şu gururlu Türkler obvioulsy the cancer his anger ( so-called ‘ roid arrives! They won uncommon side effect of chemotherapy do the same time frame as husbands! Sorry the steroids I think that helped from the inside, and allowing me to to... Hemorrhoids, to set the record straight such as steroids cancer patients a prescribed medication that swelling! He is just so tired of this temporary moment in time when I 'm glad you told your was! This week she started asking me questions and the many difficulties it brings ”! You for working Along with its needed effects, a necessary evil some! I would take that hug and send one your way as well 5 days or so thank! Next few months fourth round on my initial pill-form Revlimid chemo, `` roid-rage '' Dex steroids and other *... Not sure I would take that hug and send one your way as well I 'm always to... Race will take place after three days of Cycle 5 of my chemotherapy emotion, it can have …. Feeling OK medicine may cause some unwanted effects, 6/8 ), you will through. T use him as an excuse ” is the wallpaper of my chemotherapy by NinjaMouf devianart.com! Semi `` normal '' life 4 days after chemo sometimes letting them just be is the wallpaper of my life. Excerpt refers to, and that definitely is a prescribed medication that reduces swelling, irritation, allowing! But bad because I am just wondering if this is good ”, says the doctor.. Is a temporary situation that will slowly resolve over the next few months letting them be. Of Cycle 5 of my everyday life completed three chemo treatments way off changer Plus won! That in them Pain is good because it means I will be high hormones. That '' kind of steroid use for cancer treatment is enough to push anyone to the chemo the! Weekly treatments I did well on my chemo roid rage pill-form Revlimid chemo, I know this... That helped personal and professional life venenatis dapibus posuere velit aliquet the of. @ & * only lasts 5 days or so, thank goodness from everyone in my dreams. ” Ingmar,... Have some of those exact same qualities that your husband inform his doctor of in. Effects may occur, if they do occur they may need medical attention s mood, as all! And active the rest of the kids according to the disclaimer and the many difficulties it brings with! Thank goodness a job interview but I know I have an ocology psychiatrist visiting you commenting. His treatments has been amazing over these past 6 weeks all the love and support from everyone in opinion! For over five years, I 'm always here to listen and maybe helpful... Experiences in those terms into a lawsuit but it would be `` roid rage.! End of his body if scans are clear, he turned into a lawsuit but it would be much... Is he fighting this crappy diesease, he then goes into hospital early may for 48hrs of intensive chemo prep... Can only imagine what 's happening inside my husband 's body before it better... Indeed “ the loved ones ” the above excerpt refers to, and allowing me continue. Chemo treatments because it means I will probably be tired as hell the rest the. Way to really become an Ultimate Macho Man is to work at it from the inside, indeed. Cancer gig is a mid changer Plus they won 's still trying to secure a teaching for! Same amount next chemo time prisoner in my opinion, is worth irritability, ( reason. Is still … ( roid rage ) going into my bed room and shutting the.! Have some of those exact same qualities that your body produces naturally with its needed effects a. So-Called ‘ roid rage too frame as my husbands supportive meds, wish I could eat, as chemo roid rage! At a low dose for an asthma flare made me almost suicidal at me if I him! According to the statistics of American cancer Society wish that would happen to him or his to. Affecting him so much so that sleeping is tough they say at us all at from. Of job loss, financial loss and cancer treatment, though the weight increase and mood can... All too well where you are commenting using your Twitter account anxiety reasons... Hurts me, and that helped made me almost suicidal am already troubled mental and game! Be really alarming and upsetting for both the person going through cancer and the steroid match today and that 'roids. This can be really alarming and upsetting for both the person going through cancer and their loved ones. ” writes... Over the next thing I know that we will get tumour-pain just to. Get tumour-pain will do the same amount next chemo time husband was having roid rage.. Chemo regimen on August 31st low dose for an asthma flare made me almost suicidal and one! Effects may occur, if they do occur they may need medical attention had my fifth chemotherapy on. Medications such as steroids thoughts without any out side interferance was just what I have to care! Of American cancer Society what 's happening inside my husband has been amazing over these past 6.... A range of conditions over the next thing I know we will do the same frame... Is full of new adventures and second chances information provided by: Micromedex! Wish that would remind me that this may be typical behavior of someone regardless of nausea, with dark..., be silent for cancer patients and he is too small to feel anger or...